All Ablaze

3 Jan

New York City Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel blog: Tailored white blazer, wide leg pants, fashion editorial
New York City Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel blog: Tailored white blazer, wide leg pants, fashion editorial
New York City Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel blog: Tailored white blazer, wide leg pants, fashion editorial

Here’s to a clean slate, and the perfect reason to start all over if you need to.

Here’s to leaving the things that weighed you down right where they belong…in the past.

Here’s to breathing and soaking up all of the amazingness that is ever-present in this strange but beautiful world.

Here’s to sunshine, smiles, success and a little bit of structure.

Here’s to trying new things and breaking boundaries. Close your eyes and just go for it…even if the only reason is that there’s no reason not to.

Here’s to happiness, health, and living life one day at a time…with sparkling eyes and fire in your heart.

I hope that your wildest dreams come true and you find every one of your passions fulfilled.

Happy New Year!

*head to toe: NARS lip crayon in Cruella (on eyes), Robert Rodriguez blazer (similar style here), AQAQ wide-leg trousers, Kate Spade Satur-date heels

photos:  Jono Bernstein // hair and makeup: Kai Stamps // location: Hotel Indigo rooftop

 

Noir

29 Dec

New York City Fashion, LIfestyle, Travel blog: New Year's Eve fashion, vintage party dress, 1950's glamour
New York City Fashion, LIfestyle, Travel blog: New Year's Eve fashion, vintage party dress, 1950's glamour
New York City Fashion, LIfestyle, Travel blog: New Year's Eve fashion, vintage party dress, 1950's glamour
New York City Fashion, LIfestyle, Travel blog: New Year's Eve fashion, vintage party dress, 1950's glamour

“May your coming year be filled with magic and dreams and good madness. I hope you read some fine books and kiss someone who thinks you’re wonderful, and don’t forget to make some art — write or draw or build or sing or live as only you can. And I hope, somewhere in the next year, you surprise yourself.” -Neil Gaiman

A special and wholehearted THANK YOU to the people who have inspired me and those who have kept me from completely derailing in 2014 (you know who you are). Thanks to Jono Bernstein, Grant LeganJessica Louise DyeLiz Cherkasova, Maurice Sampson, Kai StampsEmilia Cima, Willis BrownDavid WeinholdtMeg Phillips the many others who have kept me creatively stimulated and provided unrelenting support. And last, but certainly not least, thanks to those of you who have read my blog, listened to my words, and helped me grow – whether you’ve followed from the beginning or just so happened to stumble upon this site for the first time…you keep me going.

Here is to a happy, healthy, beautiful 2015. Mad love, and see you next year!

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Ready Set Go

27 Dec

New York City Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel blog: Red jumpsuit, wide-leg pants, hotel fashion editorial
New York City Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel blog: Red jumpsuit, wide-leg pants, hotel fashion editorial
New York City Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel blog: Red jumpsuit, wide-leg pants, hotel fashion editorial
New York City Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel blog: Red jumpsuit, wide-leg pants, hotel fashion editorial
New York City Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel blog: Red jumpsuit, wide-leg pants, hotel fashion editorial
New York City Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel blog: Red jumpsuit, wide-leg pants, hotel fashion editorial
New York City Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel blog: Red jumpsuit, wide-leg pants, hotel fashion editorial
New York City Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel blog: Red jumpsuit, wide-leg pants, hotel fashion editorial

“The secret of change is to focus all of your energy, not on fighting the old, but on building the new.” Socrates

It has been a long, short, bizarre, beautiful year filled with numerous ups and downs. Spending time at home for the holidays has provided me with a quiet place to reflect on all that I have been through…the struggles I have overcome, situations I could have handled better, and relationships that have come and gone (for better or for worse). Most importantly, it has been a time to make plans for the new year and the goals and aspirations I have that’ll keep me moving forward…personally, professionally, creatively, and in pursuit of true happiness.

It is also a time that has reminded me of the countless blessings that are ever-present in my day-to-day life: family, friends, freedom, adventures, and all of the beauty that surrounds me each and every time I walk out my door. One thing I started doing this year is documenting my entire life in a private journal. It has not only been one of the best forms of therapy, but also a great way to remind myself of all the little things that have happened. Those tiny moments when I felt my heart break, fleeting occurrences that helped paved the path to finding love again after a tough breakup, the stupid jokes which caused me to laugh so hard I was brought to tears, the times I stopped myself from crying by remembering that I am ultimately as strong / cool / awesome as I want to be…and, most importantly, the pivotal moment where I made a personal vow to strive to only become better from here on out (resolution#1).

Here’s to another great year gone by, and an even better one to come. To taking the painful, sometimes embarrassing, but ultimately invaluable lessons I’ve learned and actually applying them to my life….

The way I see it is if you work hard, love hard, never stop learning, exist humbly, treat others with genuine kindness and respect, listen (truly listen), and refuse to settle for less than you know you deserve, ultimately good things will come. It’s a little thing called karma and, in my opinion, this “thing” is very real. Here is to a brighter 2015 for everyone. Mad love to you all and

*creds: Robert Rodriguez jumpsuit, necklace from Laguna Pearl, GUESS cuff, photography by Jono Bernstein, hair and makeup by Kai Stamps, and a special thanks to Hotel Indigo for letting me roll around on their beds

Chopped

21 Dec

New York CIty Fashion, LIfestyle, Travel blog: Comme des Garcons striped tee, classic watch, red lipstick, high-waisted jeans, YSL chain bag, leather ankle booties
New York CIty Fashion, LIfestyle, Travel blog: Comme des Garcons striped tee, classic watch, red lipstick, high-waisted jeans, YSL chain bag, leather ankle booties
New York CIty Fashion, LIfestyle, Travel blog: Comme des Garcons striped tee, classic watch, red lipstick, high-waisted jeans, YSL chain bag, leather ankle booties
New York CIty Fashion, LIfestyle, Travel blog: Comme des Garcons striped tee, classic watch, red lipstick, high-waisted jeans, YSL chain bag, leather ankle booties
New York CIty Fashion, LIfestyle, Travel blog: Comme des Garcons striped tee, classic watch, red lipstick, high-waisted jeans, YSL chain bag, leather ankle booties
New York CIty Fashion, LIfestyle, Travel blog: Comme des Garcons striped tee, classic watch, red lipstick, high-waisted jeans, YSL chain bag, leather ankle booties
New York CIty Fashion, LIfestyle, Travel blog: Comme des Garcons striped tee, classic watch, red lipstick, high-waisted jeans, YSL chain bag, leather ankle booties

You know what’s great about a solid pair of jeans? Everything. I will never tire of discovering cool new denim brands, and Vigoss is certainly no exception. What’s I love about these ones is they are high-waisted, skinny (but not too skinny), and fit my curveless figure like a freaking glove. A comfortable glove. Vigoss offers a variety of styles suitable for many a body type, too. And the price point ain’t bad either! Actually, most styles are currently on sale for under $50 which, given their cuteness and construction, is kind of astonishing.

In other news, I am having lots of fun being “home” for the holidays. Very happy to spend time with my family, friends, and escape the cold for a hot minute. My parents live in California, so being able to leave the house without a scarf, coat, and twelve layers is a Christmas blessing in itself!

You also may have noticed that I chopped about 5 inches off of my hair. This change is the product of a 5am decision I made yesterday with the somewhat skeptical, yet always supportive, assistance of my partner in crime, Liz. Sometimes when the two of us get together we regress just a teeny bit, and our former pre-teen tendencies resurface. It’s kind of the best. Miraculously I am quite pleased with the results, especially given the unique circumstances under which this mini-makeover occurred. We used scissors better suited for cutting construction paper – things could have turned out much worse, in my opinion.

So, there you have it…I’ve got sweet new jeans, shorter locks, and am surrounded by loving people who always have my back (and yes this includes literally evening out those unreachable, uneven strands mid-DIY haircut). Nothing to complain about here.

Ready for a new year filled with plenty of new beginnings, wild adventures, and way more happy times. I’ve racked up a long enough list of changes I’d like to make in 2015, so here I am getting a jumpstart!

*head to toe: NARS lip crayon, Comme des Garcons striped tee (loving the polka dot version, too), YSL monogramme leather shoulder bag, Daniel Wellington watch, Vigoss Jagger skinny jeans, Vagabond ankle booties 

Photos by Maurice Sampson

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Shake It Out

19 Dec

New York City Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel blog: Cozy sweater, strappy bra, retro bloomers
New York City Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel blog: Cozy sweater, strappy bra, retro bloomers
New York City Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel blog: Cozy sweater, strappy bra, retro bloomers

So here you have it, one last post of me in a bra. Jono, Kai and I teamed up and took these the same day we did these ones and these ones. Our intention was to create a fun, flirty 3-part story — something real and tastefully raw. We weren’t thinking “slutty” we were thinking “slumber party”.

I got some shit for posting a few similar shots on Instagram, which made me a bit surprised, annoyed and slightly apprehensive to publish what you see here. But then, after being so incredibly moved by 99.9% of the feedback I received for opening up and shedding a little light on some common misconceptions that screw up a lot of young girls, I decided to proceed as planned.

Before I continue, I want to say THANK YOU for the heartfelt comments, love and support. Who knew this would end up being one of the posts I am most proud of after nearly six years of blogging? All a result of the encouraging words and kick ass reactions I was so fortunate to receive.

Yep, this is a personal style blog — it will continue to be a personal style blog (and I promise to almost always be fully clothed). But, at the same time, it is also a blog about my life. It is a blog about my struggles, adventures, failures, triumphs — a tangible expression of the weird, kind of nuts, and imperfect girl that I am. A girl I’ve tried hard and am progressively learning to fully accept.

I mean, guess what — I am sitting here on the couch with my hair in a messy bun, writing this post in sweatpants and a bra drinking wine alone on a Friday night. So what? I am not glitzy in a designer dress or going to a fancy party (not to say that getting dolled up and decked out isn’t something I freaking love, because part of me lives for it!). But showing a more vulnerable side on occasion happens to come hand in hand with my personal commitment to be as authentic as possible — in my life, in my work and in my writing.

I will officially end my little rant on that note! Sending lots of love to all and safe travels to everyone leaving town this holiday season. Stay warm, stay safe, and have a happy weekend! <3

*head to toe: Silence + Noise cozy sweater, Urban Outfitters strappy bra, Daniel Wellington watch, Cosabella bloomers

All That Glitters

17 Dec

New York City Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel blog: Gigi Burris hat, holiday party dress, suede biker jacket, vintage Ferragamo heels
New York City Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel blog: Gigi Burris hat, holiday party dress, suede biker jacket, vintage Ferragamo heels
New York City Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel blog: Gigi Burris hat, holiday party dress, suede biker jacket, vintage Ferragamo heels
New York City Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel blog: Gigi Burris hat, holiday party dress, suede biker jacket, vintage Ferragamo heels

There is certainly something to be said about the power of a twinkly party dress like this one by Kate Spade Saturday. I have always styled outfits based on my mood, and sometimes that means putting on an piece that’ll work some magic and lift my spirits when I’m feeling down. Clothing can be an anti-depressant of sorts, you know what I mean? If not, I suggest you give it a whirl. And you can totally get away with wearing something like this midday during the holiday season, which is a definite plus. Chocolate and wine work wonders as well…

I know it’s supposed to be “the most wonderful time of the year” or some shit, but life doesn’t always abide by these pre-determined standards. I am not about to get all emo, nor will I complain or pity myself in any way, shape or form — I am beyond blessed with an amazing family (who I get to go see tomorrow in California), an incredible “friend family” here in New York, and a rock-steady support system that has never failed me through many, many ups and downs.

But guess what? Nobody’s life is perfect. People struggle from seasonal depression, body dysmorphia, clinical depression, anxiety disorder, and things that are far “worse”…or more severe, medically speaking. Some people are considered “stronger” than others…some people can handle misfortune “better”.

I have always been genuinely intrigued by people and the human mind. I find people interesting. I want to know their stories, I want to offer support when I can and I want everyone to thrive. I think often times people are too quick to judge. Sometimes it just takes a little extra effort and a little more understanding.

In putting forth my best effort to be a true friend, loyal relative, and even a caring stranger, I have learned that you can never judge a book by it’s cover. Nobody has a right to just assume what is happening in someone else’s life, and miraculously know what it feels like for that person. All we can do is listen and be patient…do our best to relate.

I will go ahead and leave it at that. Sometimes life fucking sucks. Sometimes there is a socially-acceptable reason for it to suck that people will automatically sympathize with, and other times it just fucking sucks . For no reason. Maybe you can explain it and maybe you can’t. But either way, it is hard. All that glitters is not gold.

And no, this is not the end-all-be-all solution (obviously), but until I find one I am going to stick with this as one of my remedies. Wrap yourself up like a freaking Christmas present — tie yourself up in bows and ribbons and put on red lipstick. Don’t plant a fake smile on your face, but I can almost guarantee that you will feel a whole lot better than if you left the house in sweat pants with greasy hair.

*head to toe: Gigi Burris hat (Gigi is my incredibly talented / amazing roommate, make sure you check out her stuff!!), Nars lip crayon in Cruella, Saturday Baroque Trapeze Dress, Topshop Jacket (similar style here), vintage Ferragamo heels c/o my grandmother (modern version here)

Photography by Jono Bernstein

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Sparkle In The Dark

9 Dec

New York City Fashion, LIfestyle, Travel blog: Holiday Dressing with Kate Spade Saturday, red lips, gold lame dress, coral heels
New York City Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Holiday Dressing with Kate Spade Saturday, red lips, gold lame dress, coral heels
New York City Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Holiday Dressing with Kate Spade Saturday, red lips, gold lame dress, coral heels
New York City Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Holiday Dressing with Kate Spade Saturday, red lips, gold lame dress, coral heels
New York City Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Holiday Dressing with Kate Spade Saturday, red lips, gold lame dress, coral heels
New York City Fashion, Lifestyle, Travel Blog: Holiday Dressing with Kate Spade Saturday, red lips, gold lame dress, coral heels

“Nothing can dim the light that shines from within.” -Maya Angelou

There are so many things to love about this season! I have to say that, second to spending time with close friends and family, my favorite thing is having the perfect excuse to get dolled up in shimmery party dresses. This gold lamé Lightbeam Dress by Kate Spade Saturday, quite similar to the Lightbeam Skirt I wore in my previous post, is pretty much the epitome of holiday fashion in my mind.

Decided to pair this flashy little frock with vampy red lipstick and these matching cherry Satur-date heels. It ended up being one of my favorite shoots in a while. It may sound shallow, but think about it…it’s pretty amazing what putting on a fancy outfit that you feel great in can do for your self-confidence.

I have chosen a life that is much better be described as a roller coaster ride than a walk on solid ground. I made decisions that have caused me to deal with a lot more highs and lows than most people I know. This has been a conscious choice, but it doesn’t mean I don’t falter. I falter often and I fall hard…

For whatever reason, December has managed to make a habit of being the most awesome / simultaneously trying months of the year for me. It is a time for joy and celebration. A time for reflection – acknowledging my triumphs and “failures” (probably better phrased as areas in my life that hold room for improvement). And, for whatever reason, a time for battling a multitude of surprises and struggles.

But at the end of the day, first and foremost, I have myself. I have so many amazing people around me who make providing genuine support a priority. I have gold, shimmery dresses. And I have countless other things to be grateful for. So I am going to take the good with the bad…continue to try and be better while humbly being proud of the person I have worked hard to become.

I will not give up…I will sparkle in the freaking dark.

*head to toe: NARS lip crayon in Cruella, KS Saturday Lightbeam Dress, KS Saturday Satur-date heels

Photos by Jono Bernstein

p.s. Don’t forget to enter the Saturday’s AWESOME giveaway where you have the chance to win a $1000 shopping spree for you and four friends! CLICK HERE to find out how to enter.