If I could be naked all the time (at least in this weather), I probably would. Unfortunately, I cannot. So, in the meantime, I will wear as little clothing as possible, but try and maneuver this in a somewhat charming manner (no promises to brush my hair, though).
I do happen to really love this skimpy little two-piece for summer. AND for some more things I am loving (like these shoes, for example) bounce on by my bloglovin’ shop (which launched today!) to get your fix on “indie style with an urban twist”. A little combination of metropolitan trends and classic pieces…check out the items I’ve picked as my personal favorites, influenced by the various cities I’ve called home over the past decade or so.
“I didn’t always know what I wanted to, but I knew the kind of woman I wanted to be.” -Diane von Furstenberg
I have always been the kind of girl who tends to stray off path and doesn’t mind getting a little lost along the way. I am not ashamed, nor do I regret any step I’ve taken, on my roundabout journey thus far. I am 28 years old, and apparently this happens to be an age where people start declaring that I should “have it figured out” (whatever that means). Needless to say, I do not. At all. At least not in the cookie cutter kind of way society tends to encourage. It’s some serious bullshit, if you ask me.
I don’t fear unpredictable decisions nearly as much as the idea of living a life that doesn’t make me feel proud. I worry more about investing my time and energy into various ventures that might leave me unfulfilled, or giving away my whole heart without truly knowing what might happen. But I am a proud hopeless romantic who will always believe that love has the power to beat all odds…so long as there is commitment and mutual respect. I would rather be a good person than an “important” person, who is glorified for the wrong reasons.
I pride myself on the fact that I’ve earned a reasonable level of success by working hard and being eager to learn (and never stop learning). I never want to stop getting better, and I know that I will lay down each night with a little more knowledge than I had waking up.
I’ve also been blessed with some incredible mentors who have played varying and invaluable roles in my professional, and eventually entrepreneurial, growth. In fact, there is one special woman, in particular, who really helped me differentiate doing things to get them done vs. doing work that stands out, turns heads and raises eyebrows. She wasn’t easy on me, by any means, at first. But now, looking back, I am eternally grateful for the “tough love”, because she taught me humility, thickened my skin and helped bring out a level of confidence in myself and my work that I never knew I had. She’s like a big sister and it is because of her that I am capable of expresssing myself in an intelligent manner and can tangibly back up the work that I do through case studies, numbers and facts. Now I believe in my abilities, and don’t settle for second best. Instead of crying when I get kicked down, I stand the fuck up, stronger, better, and more eager than ever with each experience, be it “good” or “bad”. I feel very lucky.
For me personally, the hardest experiences I’ve endured professionally have also been the best ones. Trials and tribulations that really shake you hold more power when it comes to potential transformation and growth. Not to be cliché but I do believe things happen for a reason…let the tough times make you rather than break you. Make it a decision and not your final destiny. Feeling sorry for yourself will get you nowhere, trust me. Sometimes things seem unfair, but look at what is going on in this crazy world right now! Get out a pen and paper…write down what you are grateful for. And then, when you are ready, write down how you can do better next time.
Three months ago I lived in Paris and had no real intention to leave. Then I got a couple calls, moved to LA a week and a half later, threw caution to the wind (again), and then arrived at a major crossroads. I chose the wrong path (for me, at least), and it didn’t take long to realize. I simply wasn’t happy. And if you aren’t happy with the job you devote your time, heart and soul to, as well as thee work that comes out of it, what’s the point?
I’ll be the first to admit that if I don’t feel I have the freedom to move forward, in a manner that has proven to be pretty effective in the past, and apply my unique, hard-earned skill set (we all have an area where we thrive) in a way that stands out, turns heads and raises eyebrows, I become creatively stunted, and quickly lose steam. This is why I love consulting and working with young designers and under-the-radar innovators…even if that means I have to hustle a bit harder. I don’t mind the work (actually I LOVE it), but for me, communication is key and I deliver strongest results when given the trust and opportunity to become fully immersed in building something different and effective. It’s not always about one person’s vision, but rather being able to work in away where my colleagues, clients, partners, etc. are just as excited as I am to put our heads together, listen, and produce something that fucking sparkles.
After a year abroad, moving to LA helped me recognize that I had actually started to build a life that left me feeling more secluded and detached than I had thought / wanted to be. I am happy to feel like myself again, and pleasantly surprised by how much I am enjoying LA.. The short-lived experience also gave me an opportunity to work with some incredible, creative characters and an innovative, unforgettable team. It was also a refreshing reminder of the kind of woman I have fought (yes, fought) to become, the better version I want to be, and will eventually become as a result of each and every high and low…I feel lucky for it all. I want to be a teacher, a student, a boss, an achiever and, most importantly, a person with integrity and a kind heart. So here I am, ready for the best kind of adventure…where detours are seen as enjoyable and bumps and shakeups as the roller coaster of life, which is the most fun fucking ride of all.
I feel fortunate to be an American, and also to have had the privilege of traveling and experiencing different cultures. I know it is a big year, but I am not one to talk politics so I hope everyone chooses wisely and we can become a more united and cool country…I will leave it at that.
Anyway, today is a day to celebrate with beer, fireworks and friends. Let’s give it up for the red, white and blue!
“The rest of the world was black and white, but we were screaming in color.” -Taylor Swift
Embracing the California lifestyle with some tropical attire from Nicole Miller. A new season, in a new city, ready to break out of a long-running, repetitive routine.
There is no way to be good at anything creative, or feel confident in the work you do if, internally, you are dissatisfied and uninspired. This is a lesson I learned long ago, but one that is also easy to forget when you’re trapped in a certain frame of mind, stuck behind a computer screen, or being hindered in some way…held back from releasing the ideas that are buried within you.
Life is about trying new things, figuring out whether or not they work for you, and then doing more of what does. I think that is the the actual road to happiness. And it might be a fucking long one, but at least you can know you are going somewhere great. It’s a road that should be paved with multicolored bricks and technicolored two-piece ensembles…friends, family, and sometimes solitude. Every person’s journey will be different, but we will cross paths and share wonderful experiences along the way. Some experiences will force an unexpected backtrack, and others will lead to a sunnier, happier tomorrow. Just keep on walking.
Starting to settle in to my new home in Silverlake. While this drastic life change was quite unexpected, I feel like some of the best things tend to happen when you don’t see them coming. Often times, when you need them the most. And you might not even realize it until after you take that leap, whatever it might be. Thats why I am all about risk taking.
I loved Paris (and New York, for that matter). Had no real desire to relocate to LA. Having been born and raised not far from the city, in Orange County, it always felt like a “cop out”, for some reason. Perhaps because when I have considered moving back to the West Coast in the past, it was during a rough patch. To me that felt like giving up, and if there’s one thing I’m not its a quitter, to a very stubborn degree.
But, I got a great job, a cute apartment, and for the first time in a long time it feels like things are actually falling into place. I work with inspiring, creative people at an incredible company, and am learning just how valuable establishing some structure can be. I love waking up to a private, sunny garden, having my morning routine, and going about the day in a somewhat organized manner. It’s helped me realize how frantic my lifestyle was making me, and I feel like I can finally exhale after holding my breath for years. Took me a while to get here but, who knows, maybe I’ve finally found my “happy place”.
“We spend so much time staring into the darkness that we forget that all that shines above us also shines within us.” Tyler Knott Gregosn
The fact that it is so much easier to let hurt, stress and sorrow overwhelm us, than it is to embrace the happy moments, positive changes and feelings of joy, remains a mystery to me. Is sadness that much more powerful than satisfaction and pleasure? I don’t think so…
Perhaps contentment has a tendency to be more fleeting, while pain likes to linger…but, why?
Don’t get me wrong, I fall victim to this conundrum quite frequently. However, in taking the time to stop, look around and question it all, I am starting to believe that if we focus a little bit more on the light, our fear of the dark, and its abrasive hold (which we enable), may slowly start to fade away.
If you follow me on Instagram, you may have noticed I left Paris. It was a magical year well-spent, and I’m so glad I took that giant leap outside of my comfort zone back in April of 2015…embarking on a European excursion, which I’ll remember for the rest of my life. Saw so much beauty, made incredible friends, and grew stronger as an individual throughout the process.
I’ve returned to California, the state where I was born and raised. Happy to be closer to family, soaking up the sunshine, and taking on a brand new professional adventure as Director of Digital Marketing for Citizens of Humanity. With plenty of amazing memories in my pocket, I couldn’t be more excited for this next chapter, and am readier than ever to take on yet another city. So here’s to living, and new experiences…to taking the the surprises and opportunities life throws at you and running with them without hesitation.
If there’s one thing I am good at, it’s adapting…and only two weeks in, I feel right at home here in Silverlake. But…needless to say, Paris is always a good idea. <3