I have been doing some personal reflection lately, after falling into a somewhat disgruntled frame of mind — a state of being which has actually become an unwelcome tradition for me this time of year. It tends to start out that way, at least…
When it comes to my personality, I’m stubborn and far from complacent. In describing myself as such I am not being self-deprecating — the opposite, in fact. When things go wrong, I do everything possible to try and find a solution. 2016, however, has probably been my strangest year to date (and trust me when I say there have been some pretty weird ones). The past 11 months were filled with experiences I will never be able to comprehend or resolve. Some of them terrible and some of them beautiful beyond words. Throughout the process, I have learned to accept that not every problem has a solution and that, in itself, is a big step. Also, I am now capable of finding joy in the “little things” I used to disregard. Don’t let a day go by without looking around and appreciating what you have. Sometimes its the fleeting moments and unexpected memories that pull you through tough times.
When I find I’m falling into a rut, I have to credit myself for never ceasing to at least make an attempt to do something about it. I’ve traveled — roaming around Europe, as I did last year, or taking a road trip, like I have done many times before. Nothing clears my mind and helps me organize my thoughts more than going on a road trip – driving anywhere, everywhere, nowhere…taking in new surroundings and getting to know inspiring people on a deeper level, along the way.
Everyone sees life through a different lens, and has gone through something you have not. I am a firm believer that we can never stop learning from others, if we approach the world with an unbiased mind and a welcoming heart. You’ll meet the right ones when you least expect it. Maybe they’ll open your eyes to an important part of life you were previously blind to. Perhaps you’ll find yourself revived by a story that moves you or be inspired by their unique approach to viewing the world and overcoming hardships.
While I by no means look forward to this recurring loss of creative energy, inevitably accompanied by an indescribable feeling of emptiness, I must say that each time I have gone through it (and done something about it) in the past, I have come out more revitalized and prepared for what is yet to come — in life, love, loss and any other unpredicted twist or turn.
Life is fucking weird, and it’s also what we make of it. So I decided to head out, yet again, on a random journey…starting with a night the hills of Malibu, sleeping in a Mongolian yurt at Great Spirits Ranch (highly recommend). After that I continued up North for a week and a half…spontaneously stopping at a couple familiar spots, while also seeing a few incredible new ones. I find it best to steer clear of redundancy. Travel and taking in the new will help fill those empty gaps and put you back on the right path, even if it is a different one than you expected to be on.
I learned a lot along the way and look forward to sharing more about the rest of my journey…stay tuned!
*head to toe: Ray-ban Clubmaster sunglasses, Citizens of Humanity boyfriend jacket, The 5th Brooklyn watch, T by Alexander Wang Superfine v-neck tee, Citizens of Humanity Melanie wide-leg crop jeans, Jacob Ankle boot via Urban Outfitters, Ringo the Dog via @RingoKnows