My dirty 30’s are fast approaching, and I really thought I’d have life “figured out” by now. It’s likely quite obvious that I still have one or two (or, like, a zillion) things to learn, but I’m actually cool with where I’m at.
I may be single with a colorful personality. I’m unpredictable and tumultuous, at times. But I can’t imagine maintaining enough energy / spirit to move forward without enduring life’s twists and turns with an open mind and an open heart. Excitement is what makes my blood pump. Our quirks keep us different and fucking special. Sure, I’d take back a drunken text or two if I could but, all in all, I’m proud of the woman I’ve become, and excited to continue on my journey.
I was, for years, a creature of consistency and thrived through structure…a way of life I swore off completely a while back, upon realizing that NOTHING was turning out “according to plan”. Taking life one day at a time has opened up a whole different side of me — I approach the world with fewer expectations, bright eyes, and a hunger for the mystery of what’s to come. I feel free.
Life will inevitably throw you curveballs. None of us know what each day might bring. We will experience heartbreak and joy. EMBRACE IT ALL…cry, laugh, enjoy, and progress. Grow stronger. Trust me, it’s a lot better being caught off guard, holding a fucking bat that you’re ready to swing than getting knocked in the side of the head.
People say I am reckless, and perhaps they’re right. But I wake up, work hard, play hard, and seize the day…every chance I get. Sometimes I bitch and complain, but it isn’t because I feel slighted (not a morning goes by where I don’t thank my lucky stars). However, I am opinionated and honest. I speak my mind. We’re all going through something, and fighting our own demons…I have never understood why people have such trouble talking about the fact that life isn’t actually always rainbows and butterflies. We’re all humans, shouldn’t we be helping one another instead of faking it to feel superior? And, p.s., those of you who do…you’re not fooling anyone.
Feed your hunger for adventure and discovery. Get to know yourself. Embrace fear, challenge, confusion, misery, anxiety, joy, weirdness, surprises. I want to make memories and have so many strange stories that I cannot keep track and have to continue making more. I want to love — both myself and others. I want to experience absolutely everything.
I want to drive, move, explore, see new places and meet interesting people. I want to expand my horizons. I want to be semi-drunk at 9am taking photos in a magical, sparkly M Missoni dress just before diving into a swimming pool in my underwear at the kitschiest hotel in California. I want to go where my heart leads me, free from doubt and without thinking twice.
Let go of timelines and expectations. Life can be grey or it can be glittery…a decision we all must make ourselves. Take comfort in the bizarre and know that the term outlandish is a compliment because you can’t be put in a box.